in the dark

I am afraid of the dark.

There I said it.

I have always been... and though I am in my thirties... I still find myself paralyzed at times... in the dark...

I am scared of few things. I am overly confident in my own abilities at times.

However, I'm scared of the unknown... of finding out if I'm prepared for what might happen if I turn on the lights...
So sometimes... I leave the lights off...
I'd rather walk into things (mind you, these are things I've walked into before) ... than face my fear...

Before the sun came up this morning, I walked squarely into the backside of a chair. It made me laugh, as I suddenly was unable to move forward.

Lord, help me to turn on the lights... and trust you... help me to not accept walking in the dark and fear, as a way of life...